Recovery

under the covers

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Gentle-people,

I am in recovery.

While I will share the details relevant to this newsletter, I am still not in a place to talk about what I’ve been through extensively. Trust I have a loving and supportive community of folks behind me who are helping me hold the details.

I am in recovery.

Which to me sounds like a word that should mean getting back under the covers. After an unexpected turn of events, my whole life changed in a matter of weeks…and still, I feel this pressure to “get back to” myself, to my routine, my work, and my writing.

I am in recovery.

Recovery sounds like finding the right path back to yourself, but I don’t think there is a going back for me. I can already tell will be haunted¹ by these past few weeks for a long time. I am calling this recovery time in hopes that I can lean further into the unintentional pause I began with, but more intentionally continue to take a break from publishing this newsletter for another couple of weeks.

I am in recovery.

And I am learning to believe I can get to the next place I am to perch slowly as I seek gentle landing. I am leaning into some wisdom, my friend Camille once shared: slow is smooth and smooth is fast.

As I write, I am under the covers. Sleep, where the body repairs itself, awaits me. If I am going to recover, I will need to honor her work.

wishing you a gentle landing,

—Rose J Percy

1. Can never use “haunting” without wanting to think nerdy philosophy/theology thoughts with y’all. We will see what we can mine in my recovery time.